There are days when i think im doing ok. But im just tricking myself. I try to ignore the negatives but sometimes they just creep up on me.
I stood and watched these waves roll in just now, and for a few moments i felt truly calm and relaxed. A huge step in the right direction.
But in those moments, i found my self crying. Not sobbing or hysterical, just tears rolling down my face. Uncontrolled, uncontained, uncontested.
In moments like these im not sure how i feel or why my body acts like it does.