Needless to say, my post earlier today was me at a very low moment.
It’s hard when you’re alone, or when you feel alone.
I’ve got family and people I’d call friends.
But i dont have anyone there i can count on. No one i can go to and just vent, talk to about my fears and worries – a true friend. A best friend.
And it’s lonely.
I’m not a very open person, im very closed off and very, very private.
It was different with (E), she made me feel safe and secure. Like i could tell her anything. That’s saying a lot – because I’ve never been like that with anyone before.
I’ve shut myself away because i dont want to be hurt. Exactly like i am feeling now.
But it’s not just the pain of my heartbreak, sure that’s a big part of it, but the truth is i have no one that understands how i feel.
Everyone I’ve tried to talk to has their own opinions, of course. Yet no one gets how i feel. It always feels as though people are trying to push their ideas and opinions on me rather than just being a friend. So, inevitably, i pull back.
And then i am left here, in situations like this, alone. So very alone. 😥