I’ve just done something either very brave. Or very stupid.
We were going to meet up today. And I was going to give her the Christmas present I’d put together for her.
But she had plans with her family prior to ours and couldn’t make it.
But I realised that maybe I need distance and space too. We’ve spoken almost every day since breaking up. And every morning after I felt terrible. Like the quick fix of talking meant my heart broke a new every day. All over again.
So, I told her how much I loved her. Told her I’d always love her. Reassured her I’d still be here when she’s ready, but also that I need space too. My heart is breaking every day and the pain I feel is just being buffered when we talk. I set Sunday as a day we can talk again and arrange that meeting if we want it.
I ended the message with the positive reinforcement of my love and that I always will.
She agreed and thanked me for having the strength to suggest it.
I hope this allows me to deal with my pain. And her to deal with hers, but most of all I hope this ultimately lets her see that if we were to get back together that I would never push her. That my love for her is truly unconditional. It doesn’t require her to do anything – I just love her freely.
I’ll live in hope that one day we can live our lives together. But I realised that I need to get passed this pain to do that.
So wish me luck. I have work from now until Sunday. So hopefully I can use that positively. I need to sleep better. I need to wake up better. I need to smile again. Hopefully, this space can help us both find each other and be happy when we do!
Yes! I hope you can use this week to take care of YOU. The healthier your mind and body is, the healthier your emotions and love toward her will be. Focus on yourself this week, okay? Wish you luck! 🙂
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That’s what I want. I want to be he guy she fell in love with. Not the guy who’s heart she broke ☺ thank you so much. For every thing. I hope I can make this work. But I hope I can at least regain some happiness too! ☺
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And I think you will! 🙂
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